floating & lost.
There really isn't any other way that I could describe the last few months other than feeling lost. At the beginning of January, we closed on two houses in two days. We sold our house one day and bought a house the next. If you've followed along on my personal Instagram account, you know that we have been doing a ton of work to the house we bought. Moving doors, walls, removing all of the kitchen, bathroom and adding on a master bathroom and bedroom, just to name a few.
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We did not plan on moving when we did, but someone showed interest in purchasing our home and that left us with the decisions of whether we would sell and build or sell, flip a house, and then build. Fortunately, we live in a really small community and were able to call about a house that had been vacant but not for sale, and the owner was willing to sell it to us. Timing is everything. The kicker. We would need to do a LOT of work to this place to make it both livable and ours and we would be essentially, homeless for a little while.
Thankfully, I have the best parents who have been letting us live with them which allows Ryan to be close to our new house that he is working on 6 to 7 days a week, sun up to sun down. But, we can't just focus on the house. I have to continue to run our business.
The last three years have been extremely fast paced with myself wearing most of the hats of our business. Last year Ryan came on full time, we hired a few people to help with the store, and we also hired a part time printer. This leaves my position one that's difficult because I feel so much pressure to get to do everything right. To serve our customers better, offer a better experience in the store and to find new markets to sell at throughout the year. I have to focus on our "big" dreams and create the vision for where we want LITTLE h CREATIVE and Ramble Apparel to go next. What does our future look like?
Those are really big questions and pants to fill. I've realized that cold weather, living with your parents, hustling around with very little of your possessions accessible is a difficult environment to be creative & inspired in. I've had really low points of doubt, but also really high points when I think about all that was accomplished just last year.
I function at my best when I have a routine, a schedule to go off of, and help from my husband and a home to land in. Right now with our situation, I am kind of floating and having to make the best of every day with what we have. I'm not upset or sad, maybe a little more anxious than normal, but most of all I am thankful for our families who continue to help more than I could imagine and our awesome team at the store who are helping to keep things going.
So, the point of all this. I'm here. I continue to figure out how to show up and adjust. I've decided to be present most for my husband who is tired and working so hard for us and our kids who aren't in their own spaces. Bare with me as we make it through these last few weeks of renovations and moving.